Patience

No. You cannot have me. Not while I'm still so broken. And even still. That word does no justice.

No. Not while im still fragile. Sensitive to the touch
Beyond that of collateral damage
Misappropriated, disintegrated, more than I could bear.
The darkest parts of my mind, all consuming. Wildly tainted
Cold nose tips, salty tear drips
Blood stained glass
shattered from the past

Glass shard distortion of who I used to be

No
Not while I'm still damaged

Not while loneliness is all engulfing
Joining with the darkness
Swallowing me whole
And I'm lost

These hands, these feet, this body aren't my own

Foreign. Stranger

Who's dwelling inside the hollowness?

Love was never a tenant
No warmth

No. Not while I'm cryptic
Icy
Cold
While my touch sends menacing shivers down your spine
And not in the good way
It's parasitic
Insanely infectious
And not in a good way

No

Just wait

Wait until

The heat of the sun begins to warm my fingertips and numbness is no longer present. Rays sweetly licking my face bringing back it's color and fullness

Until there's no chance of me dragging you down to the darkness
Where everything lays limitless
Indispensable. Free

Until I no longer have to cling to the bitterness of the past to feel something. To be something

Until I could let go all of the good and all of the bad. To be satisfied with nothing than pacified with poison.



Just wait
Just wait